Crucify Sorrow

Listening to: MIYAVI // Dear from XXX (Due'le quartz Cover)

I feel horrible. I have no idea why. I'm so emo.
I'm the emo-est person alive. EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO!!!!!!

I haven't felt like this in ages. Why now????!!!! WHY OH WHY OH WHY?!!!!! Of all the years to be depressed, I chose this year. Wonderful.

I need a giant tub of ice-cream, me thinks. And a day off. I really need a day off. I wanna sleep. I don't really wanna do my BM homework. I think BM is stupid. Do you think BM is stupid? I think you do coz' no one really cares anymore except for the government and the patriotic idiots. I think it's stupid because you don't really use it outside of Malaysia save for Singapore and Indonesia. But somehow, I think that they're all using English too now. Yeah. So basically, I don't really see the point.

It has been irrevocably proven, that depressed people die earlier. I don't want to die! I'm too young! I haven't had a chance to showcase my pretty face talents to the world! I haven't made a difference! I HAVEN'T HAD A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, basically that's the whole gist of it. I hate being depressed. I hate it hate it hate it hate it HATE IT.

Someone should give me a nice, hard kick in the ass.

Screw everything. I hate life.

Mystical Steppes: Along The Silk Road

All I have to say about Mystical Steppes.

A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.
Absolutely positively, amazing.
For real. It was that good.

For one, the costumes were oh so gorgeous and shiny. It went all TINKLY TINKLY when they danced. And gosh, they danced up a storm. I am absolutely baffled. Stunned. Speechless. AMAZED.

Especially by that snake girl, although I'm terrified of snakes. Anyway.

OOH. A whole lotta belly-dancing was involved. I think belly-dancing is hot. I wish I could belly-dance. Then I'd have a nice belly. A nice, flat one. Yeah. Belly-dancing pwns.

And there was this dance where the men wore furry hats!!! They shook their heads like they ate Ecstasy pills! Like -jiggle jiggle jiggle SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE- . And the whole process repeated itself all over again. It made me giggle. It made my brother giggle!

OMG. THE OPERA LADY. I LOVE YOU OPERA LADYYYYYY. I want her voice. Can I have it? Could anyone pull an Ursula from The Little Mermaid and steal her voice for me? She was like reaching notes and pitches that no normal human could reach! I wanna be able to do that. :(

I also liked the fact that the female dancers could dance in HIGH HEELS. I can't even walk straight in high heels and they're already DANCING in them. I'd probably trip after one step. BAM on the floor. I feel like such a failure. :(

I have pictures, but they don't involve the dance coz' the announcer person was all "NO PHOTOGRAPHY". So, being the good little angel I am, no photography was involved.
EXCEPT. When it came to displaying the pretty, pretty costumes outside the hall. I took pictures! But I'm way too lazy to upload them now coz' I'm sleepy.
I'll upload them....not tomorrow...got tuition...Maybe...Tuesday? Wait. Got Hebat practice. AIYAH. Whatever lah. When I'm free lah, k?!! I wanna go sleep now.

Donald Duck no Magical Adventure

listening to: AN CAFE // Donald Duck no Magical Adventure

I'm so in love with this song. Haha. IT'S SO ADORABLE HEARING MIKU SINGING LIKE DONALD DUCK AND SAYING TIRAMISUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

Anyhoo, my little sister and brother just turned 12 the little brats. Can get I.C liao. GUAI GUAI DEI AND STUDY HARD, YA? Or else Jie Jie come and beat you up.



And never leave a bored me and a camera phone alone with friends.

That's what happens when you do. A whole day of candid shots and crazy thoughts.

Don't you just love the crap outta me?

And today's swearing day, so I will now perform Ride Of The Valkyries in FUCK minor.

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuck.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuck.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuck.

TIRAMISU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I found these gorgeous pair of shoes in Bonia that only cost RM69. BUT THEY DON'T HAVE IT IN MY SIZE!!!!! WAHHHHHHHH. -cries-

The Social Riot Machines

istening to: The GazettE // Disorder Heaven

Dear whoever.

Here's some advice for you.

If you want to fucking trash talk, do it in front of my fucking face. Kapeesh?
Yes, I swore. For the first time in nearly a year. I SWORE.
I don't appreciate people saying things behind my back. I'm telling you to tell it to my face directly. WHY? DON'T HAVE THE GUTS FOR IT? DON'T HAVE THE BACKBONE FOR IT?

Scared that you'll hurt my feelings, assholes? You don't have to worry about that! I bet you'll jump at the chance to insult me right in my face. Go on. I can take it. AT LEAST I HAVE A BACKBONE UNLIKE YOU.

I admit, I'm a hypocrite. I trash talk too. But at least I don't do it where EVERYONE CAN FUCKING READ IT. You must be an utter genius to do that. If you wanna trash talk, at least do it right. Freaking geniuses you are. And you make it worse by talking about my friends. NO LIFE, IS IT? By messing with my friends, you're messing with me. You won't like it when I start a war.

I'll start a fire, and burn some bridges.

As if you're better than I am. Take a look in the mirror, why don't you and tell me if you're better. You bet your sorry little ass, that you're not and you never will be.

Especially when you look like a freakin gorilla.

PS:// I think Reita's one hot piece of ass.

SILLY GOD DISCO.

listening to: The GazettE // Nausea & Shudder

Ignore the blog title. It's totally random.

TOTAL BLOG REVAMP, BTW. Much easier to navigate and way more pleasing to the eye. Featuring Jrock band The GazettE. OMG. REITA-KUN'S SO DAMN HOT. Scratch that. The whole band is hot.

Anyway. I'm totally exhausted due to school and tuition and all that. I desperately need a break. Can I say how much I really, really dislike being tired? For one, my whole body aches and my shoulders and neck hurt more than usual. PLUS, I get into a super bad mood. People won't like me when I'm in a bad mood. It's ugly. I go all RAWR and stuff.

I've been listening to a lot of Jrock lately for some reason. Really heavy stuff that I used to listen to. I can't stand the English ones as much anymore since most of the bands I used to love are getting so overrated. It makes me depressed. Not many people listen to Jrock right? THEREFORE, it's all mine at the moment. I don't have to worry about people finding out about them and spazzing over them.

At least, not now.

It's like everytime I find out about something, the general public finds out about them too and everyone who is anyone will start going on and on and on about bands like Saosin, My Chemical Romance and Avenged Sevenfold.
It was the same with Simple Plan. No one liked them much during their early days. After Welcome To My Life was released, everybody's like "OMG. SIMPLE PLAN IS LYK SEW KEWL."
I'm not being mean or anything. But sometimes I can't help but wonder. Do these people actually listen? It's like they listen but they don't hear. And I'm not saying that everyone acts like that. I just think that there's a large majority who do think that way. Just because a certain band or musician's music starts getting their songs played on Hitz.Fm, doesn't mean that the whole country has to conform to what they think society wants from them. And OMG. There are times when I just wanna burn that radio station. For example, I love My Chemical Romance and all. But I really hate the fact that they're so OVERPLAYED. My Chemical Romance are one of the few bands that I have a deep respect for. But Hitz.Fm ruins everything for me. Before they "burst" into the scene, they were one of the best bands around. Hardly anyone knew about them. I liked the fact that only a handful of people knew them and appreciated their music just for their music. It's the same with a lot of other bands.

I know I sound selfish. But, I don't want people liking bands/musicians just because everybody else does. People think I'm stupid for thinking like this. Just so you know, I don't give a flying f**k. Music has been my only passion in life. It will always be my ONLY passion. I don't care what you tell me. I don't care if I never become successful. The only thing that matters is my love for it and my love for what I'm going to do with my life.

But I'll prove you wrong. I'll make it. Just you wait and see.

And I planned on not writing anything, but turns out I'm full of teen angst!! I'm oh-so-scene. Someone shoot me.

Dinner with Ajahn Brahmavamso

I bought me a sexy new bag today.

It's black and it's got pink words on it.

Mmm..Sexay mama.

So. On to dinner! After guitar lessons, followed Aunty Chin Pee to Holiday Villa in Subang.
Let me tell you something about Holiday Villa. It is HECKA difficult to find the damn ballroom.
The stupid sign said that it was on Level 5, so we went to level 5 then it was all hotel rooms. So I called my mommy and I kena scolding.
TT______TT


"Mommy!!! We can't find the ballroom!"
"OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND ASK! NO MOUTH AH??!!!"
"*thinks*OMGGG. So damn scary weh* Okaayyy!"
"Okay???"
"OKAYYY. BYEBYEE!"

I forgot to tell you what the dinner's about.

We have organised this project to help build the Jhana Grove Meditation Retreat Centre (MRC) at the Bodhiyana Monastery In Perth, Australia, a project of Ajahn Brahmavamso.

So, like that lor. I think it's a good cause. Meditation ain't just for Buddhists, ya know.

Anyway. OMG MY FOOD SO NICEEE. It was a full vegetarian meal and it was yummy and it went rumbly in my tummy.
Observe.
Yummy yummy, rumbly in my tummy.

And then, of course, there was entertainment.
First, there was this Baba&Nyonya duo. Damn kao funny. I think I laughed till I nearly pissed my pants.


The person on the right is a guy, btw. Damn funny.

And then there was this Astro Veteran singer. He was kinda meh. For an English educated person, his English was quite crappy.
And then there were Buddhist hymns! Those were good. Especially the accapella one.

Yah. So. They raised about RM108,000. SO FAR. YENG LEH. So far some more only. Tomorrow gonna count finish.
Betcha can't do that!!!

And say hi to Ajahn Brahm, the always-smiling-monk.

His talks make me all happy and warm and fuzzy inside.
That's how inspiring he is.
If you're a Buddhist, call me and I'll take you along when he comes. His talks are hecka funny.

=]

How was your week?

The sound of school bells ring endlessly in my ear.
Oh, the joys of school and the joy of actually knowing that you're gonna gain something out of going to school.

ONE MORE YEAR, PEOPLE!!!!
Thank God. I can't wait for college. Next thing ya know, I'll be complaining about college and wishing I was back in Secondary School again.
OH WELL. You can't win 'em all.

They put me in 5 Merbau.
TT_______TT

I wanted Mersawa soooo bad. I feel more at home there. I ACTUALLY FEEL LOVED THERE!!!!!
Not like here. I DON'T FEEL LOVED HERE!!!!!!
*snorts disapprovingly*
They should make me into an honorary Mersawa-ian since I'm always going to that class in the middle of lessons.
XD

I'm actually making an attempt to be hardworking, surprisingly. I spent 4 hours studying yesterday! My poor brain is kinda fried.
You win some, you lose some I guess.

I'm gonna go do something constructive now.