Bring on 2007, baby.

It's hard to believe that the year 2006 will be over in just than an hour. Time really passes by us so quickly sometimes that we don't even realize it.
Jeez. WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING ALL YEAR???

Anyway. I have some new year's resolutions that I actually PLAN on doing.


So. There they are. If I do not achieve any of them by the end of 2007, I will officially be the biggest loser around. Especially since SPM is next year.

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Anyway. On to the recap of 2006.

2006 has been an extremely eventful year for me.
I transferred to a new school, got new friends and left every bad experience I ever had at ASS EM KAY BUTT FOUR behind me.
I have to say, I'm SO glad I left that place.
GOODBYE SUPERFICIAL AND EVEN MORE SUPERFICIAL IDIOTS.
Good riddance.

I really wouldn't have gotten through this year if it weren't for the people I met. Honestly. I'm so glad to have met everyone that I have.
WANT A PARAGRAPH DEDICATED TO YOU?? OKAYYYY.


I honestly think that we could be twins. Honestly. Seriously. I'm dead serious.
Anyhoo, I don't think I can imagine my life without you around now. You're just waaaaaaay too fun to be around *imagines your head swelling like a balloon*.
Sometimes I feel that you're the exact opposite of me, yet at the same time, I feel like you're exactly like me.
How weird, eh?
I love all our late night chats about DBSK and SuJu and your sudden love for the Danhobak Sungminnie. And I definitely can't leave out all those spazz sessions over cute things they'd do and all that jazz.
Other than that, we can talk about pretty weird things, I think. I just don't remember anything about them *they're probably all erased from my memory bank by now due to certain reasons*.
All I wanna say is, I LOVE YOU WOMAN. Here's some Sungminnie for you.



We've been through a lot haven't we? Eversince BU4. We've known each other for 4 years now and going on 5.
We've had our ups and downs. We had our fights. We made up along the way. We shared secrets. We shared tears. We shared laughter. We shared practically everything.
We're so different. You don't like the things that I do and I don't like the things that you do. Yet, we still manage to click somehow. It's strange the way life works.
I wouldn't trade what we have for the world.
Even if you don't feel the same way.


There are absolutely no words to describe what we have. I sometimes feel that it goes beyond friendship.
I've known you practically half of my life. You were my only friend back then although I can't say the same now lol. But I am thankful. I'm thankful for all the times we've had, for all the stuff we shared, and for all the times you've had to put up with my crazy and spazzy antics.
I still think our friendship is as strong as ever. Probably stronger. Although we hang out with a different crowd now, I'll always know you as my first ever best friend and you'll stay my best friend till' the day I die.
Just so you know, I'll love you forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever....*rambles on*


Shorty doesn't read my blog. OH WELL.
It's nice to know that you're always a phone call or SMS away. It's comforting in a way. Although you do tend to PURPOSELY annoy me *which I totally hate*, you're still awesome in some ways.
I mean, you were one of the only people to comfort me when I went through rough times.
And it makes me feel really accomplished to know that I'm taller than you by nearly a head. HA.
Sorry. Anyway, thank you for being there for me, for putting up with my annoying-ness with all the poking and the hitting and the scolding and the whole "DON'T SWEAR" thing.
And I still want my soft toy. Bring me my soft toy.


To everyone I've ever met throughout the year.
Thank you. Thank you for even contemplating the idea of being my friend. I know I'm not the warmest or friendliest person ever, but I'm trying. I'm trying really hard to open up. But for now, it's still difficult for me. I'm not used to people. Heck, I'm not even used to me!
I'm sorry if I ever did anything that made you question my sincerity or my words. But I mean it when I say, thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
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I'm such a mush-face but whatever. I'm a mush-face, always have been and always will.
Better get used to it guys. You're gonna have to deal with it for another year. And hopefully for many more years to come.


Happy New Year, guys. May the year 2007 be an awesome one for you.

GetUp&Move

Got tagged. Thanks a lot, Zhi.
I think I did this before.

The First Layer: On The Outside
Name: Teo Yi Ming.
Date Of Birth: 24. 12.1990.
Current Status: Single.
Eye Colour: Dark brown.
Hair Colour: Black.
Right or Left: Right.
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn.

The Second Layer: On The Inside
Your Heritage: Chinese.
Your Fears: Being alone.
Your Weakness: I have no idea.
Your Perfect Pizza: idk.

The Third Layer: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your First Thought Waking Up: Don't wanna wake uppp...-mumblemumble-
Your Bed Time: 10.30 on school nights. Other than that, whenever.
Your Most Missed Memories: Being able to trust people.

The Fourth Layer: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. Coke. What's the difference. They taste the same.
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds. I'm not a big fan of BK.
Single or Group Dates: Group.
Adidas or Nike: None.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Don't drink either of them.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Depends.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino.

The Fifth Layer: Do you
Smoke: No. I don't want black, shriveled up lungs, thank you very much.
Curse: Only if I'm super pissed off or super angry. Other than that, I try not to.

The Sixth Layer: In The Past Month
Drink Alcohol : Yes.
Gone To The Mall: Yes.
Been On Stage: No.
Eaten Sushi: Yes.
Dyed Your Hair: No.

The Seventh Layer: Have You Ever..
Played a Stripping Game: No.
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yes.

The Eight Layer:
Age You're Hoping to Get Married: After 25 and before 35.

The Ninth Layer: In a Guy/Girl
Best Eye Colour: Brown.
Best Hair Colour: Dark.
Short or Long Hair: Short.

The Tenth Layer: What Were You Doing
1 Minute Ago: Answered a question.
1 Hour Ago: Waiting for mommy in the car.
4-5 Hours Ago: Lunch at Paddington's House Of Pancakes.
1 Year Ago: idk.

The Eleventh Layer: Finish The Sentence
I Love: Music, family and friends.
I Feel: Blah.
I Hate: People in general.
I Hide: Every little bit of me.
I Miss: Alcohol.
I Need: Love.

The Twelveth Layer: Tag 5 People
1.You.
2. Him.
3. Her.
4. Them.
5. Us.

New blog layout after today.

Mmm...cake.

Mmm...cake. TIRAMISU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daddy ain't so bad after all. SQUEE.

Curse Of The Golden Flower

Okay. Movie review time.

I just saw Curse Of The Golden Flower yesterday! The trailer really impressed me when I saw it before, so I HAD to see it.

Here's the synopsis, copied and pasted from who-knows-where.

China, Later Tang Dynasty, 10th Century.

On the eve of the Chong Yang Festival, golden flowers fill the Imperial Palace. The Emperor (Chow Yun Fat) returns unexpectedly with his second son, Prince Jai (Jay Chou). His pretext is to celebrate the holiday with his family, but given the chilled relations between the Emperor and the ailing Empress (Gong Li), this seems disingenuous.

For many years, the Empress and Crown Prince Wan (Liu Ye), her stepson, have had an illicit liaison. Feeling trapped, Prince Wan dreams of escaping the palace with his secret love Chan (Li Man), the Imperial Doctor's daughter.

Meanwhile, Prince Jai, the faithful son, grows worried over the Empress's health and her obsession with golden chrysanthemums. Could she be headed down an ominous path?

The Emperor harbors equally clandestine plans; the Imperial doctor (Ni Dahong) is the only one privy to his machinations. When the Emperor senses a looming threat, he relocates the doctor's family from the Palace to a remote area. While they are en route, mysterious assassins attack them. Chan and her mother, Jiang Shi (Chen Jin) are forced back to the palace.

Their return sets off a tumultuous sequence of dark surprises. Amid the glamour and grandeur of the festival, ugly secrets are revealed.

Sounds interesting already.
Anyhoo. This movie really didn't disappoint me. HOWEVER. Them idiots at who-knows-where HAD to DUB it in CANTONESE.

WTF man. Lu dub mandarin show into Cantonese for what leh? Bo si zou ah? Siao lang. So free. Go do something constructive like....bake a cake or something. Yeesh.

So yeah. The dubbing sucked.
THEIR MOUTHS WEREN'T MOVING TO THEIR WORDS. So weird and awkward.
Gong Li didn't sound hot anymore. But she sure as hell looked it.

See. Even she agrees.

And her boobs were pushed up SO high that I think you could support something with them. Like a pencil.
The servants boobs were pushed up really high too.

Wah liao. Can still breathe some more.

Oh yeah. Back to the movie.

For one, the cinematography was sooooo good. There was one scene at the end, where Gong Li goes all "AHHHHHH" and breaks a cup.
The cup was falling and breaking in S....L....O....W....M....O....T....I....O....N.
And you could see all the liquid falling in S....L....O....W....M....O....T....I....O....N.
It was pretty.

:)

And surprisingly, after his HORRIBLE acting debut in Initial D, Jay Chou was really, actually, quite good.
Well. At least to me!
He quite yeng also weh.



Oh yeah. There was a LOT of blood too. Me no likey.
SEE! THE MAN'S PRACTICALLY DRENCHED IN THE STUFF.

Yuck. So gross.

Before I forget.
SPOILER ALERT. DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU WISH TO HAVE THE STORY RUINED.
Not that anyone cares anyway, but like I said, who cares!

I really think that the Emperor is SUPER EVIL.
I mean, HOW CAN A SON POISON HIS OWN MOMMY? Sot lah you.
Ending so sad. Prince Jie (that's Jay Chou's character) would rather kill himself than give his mommy poison.

ALL THE PRINCES DIED!!!!!!!!
But the siao king didn't. Aihh.
Some more, after that big battle with the golden armor gang, just call the servants to go clean up then gao dim.
SO MEAN. Ten thousand soldiers just died and you're still capable of cleaning up and playing with fireworks??? All your sons also mati, you don't care ah? Tak de heir to the throne. Your dynasty can rot for all I care.

Another shocking thing that happened was when the third prince killed the Crown Prince!
WAH. SO EASY FA PI QI ONE. Small boy also like that. Tsk tsk.

Anyway. I'm done. That probably didn't really tell you much about the movie. haha. I suck at reviews.

Tis' the season to be jolly.

say hello to my half naked Christmas tree. I didn't put that up btw.

Ah. Christmas.
The time of year where everyone starts blowing valuable cash on presents for brats like you and me.

Can't you just SMELL the faint traces of money that's going to linger on your lovely, beautifully wrapped-with-a-bow-on-top present?

Guess what? I can't.

Mainly because WE don't celebrate Christmas and because WE don't believe in spending unnecessary money.
Sure, I have a Christmas wish list. Sure, I want things. I'm human too, ya know.
But that's all I can do. WANT & WISH. I don't believe in spending all that money on presents for people who can easily afford it. I'd much rather give it to someone who deserves it.

I'm a really simple person to begin with. All I ever want for Christmas or whenever, is for the world to stop being so messed up and for people to stop being so messed up. I wouldn't want to celebrate Christmas in a world where everything has gone wrong.
Other than that, all I want is for my family and friends to be healthy and for me to be able to find friends who will never leave me even in the most dire situations.
That and a boyfriend. Hehe.

So, just to make my day night a little more brighter and duller, here's some things I'd really like if I actually cared about getting them.
Fine, so maybe I want one of the items on the list. Or two. Or three. Maybe all of them.
Just so you know, I'm an EXTREMELY easy person to please.
XD

MATERIAL OBJECTS
ESTEE LAUDER PURE WHITE LINEN PERFUME
Don't you look at me like that. I deserve to be girly once in a while.
And I'm gonna copy and paste now.

With a composition to make your mouth water, this new interpretation is being referred to as “the fragrance to live in all year long” and is sure to please lovers of crisp velvety florals. Notes include grapefruit, mandarin, iced rose tea, raspberry, pear, Granny Smith apple, dewy greens, lily, white freesia, white ginger, cardamom, red tulips, rose absolute, honeysuckle, gardenia, tuberose, jasmine, iris, osmanthus, white cedarwood, patchouli and white heliotropine.

All I can say is that this smells absolutely heavenly. Not like that Pure Poison crap.
So strong until nose want to fall off.

PRICE RANGE: RM 200 - RM 500


VINCCI SHOES
I just think that Vincci shoes are sexy.
I have a MAJOR softspot for SHOES! Especially HEELS!
But I'm not allowed to wear them. =[

PRICE RANGE: RM 45 - RM 60

DISNEY PLUSHIES (PREFERABLY POOH BEAR)
I'm a sucker for anything remotely close to cute. Especially plush toys!!
I love them to death! Their cuteness and furryness and SQUISHYNESS.
But, the only plushie that will make me squeal like a stuck pig is.....

WINNIE THE POOH & CO!!!

-sings-
WINNIE THE POOH, WINNIE THE POOH
TUBBY LITTLE CUBBY ALL STUFFED WITH FLUFF
HE'S WINNIE THE POOH, WINNIE THE POOH
WILLY NILLY SILLY OLD BEAR!

PRICE RANGE: RM 30 -RM 120 [depending on size]

Moving on to the things *ahem*people*ahem* I'll will never have.

STILL DREAMING
Yes, I want them. Not in a dirty way though.
I just wanna see them live. OR spend a day with them. I'd be a happy camper for who knows how long!!!

How strange.

Don't people have good ideas anymore?

NO CREATIVITY WHATSOEVER.

Useless buggers.
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Before I forget.

Jingle Bells.

Christmas layout.

YAY!

Only temporary. Then the Perhaps Love one is going back up.

LIKE IT?????!!!!!!
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I never have anything to blog about.
I'M BORING.

Go me.

Why do people like me when I'm so BORING?

Going to Joanne's house to thrash it now. LATER.

GERAMNYA SAYA!!!!

-starts crying-

I HATE YOU YOU STUPID COMPUTER. -smacks it-

WHY'D YOU DIE ON ME???? NOW I HAVE TO FIND ALL 2500 OF MY MUSIC FILES.

PLUS! YOU KILLED MY GRAPHICS! AND MY PICTURESSSSSS.

-continues crying-

-breathes-

Thank GOD for my Deviantart account and my constant need to show off my graphics in forums.

here's a thought. [PART II]

Get the picture?

Someone should buy me alcohol for my birthday.

Here's a thought.

I wish I were skinnier.
I wish I were prettier.
I wish I were smarter.
I wish I were wittier.
I wish I were more creative.
I wish I were more sophisticated.
I wish I were more sensitive.
I wish I were more caring.
I wish I were more loving.
I wish I was less clumsy.
I wish I was less uncertain.
I wish I was less intimidating.
I wish I wasn't so much of an introvert.
I wish I was more of an extrovert.
I wish that I will be able to put my faith in people.
I wish that I didn't do the things I did.

I wish that I could be everything you ever wanted me to be.


Here's another thought.
Suck it up and move on with life.

You are pathetic, Yi Ming. P - A - T - H - E - T - I - C.

You may not know this but....

I am a regular, bonafide SHOE-AHOLIC.

Don't believe, ah? I lovelovelovelovelovelove shoes. My mommy just won't let me buy them.

I was in One Utama on Tuesday and I just HAPPENED to [more like purposely] pass by Vincci.
You know? The shoe store with like 934829342383525 pairs of GORGEOUS SHOES.
Yeah. That one.

And I swear, my jaw sorta dropped.<YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

asdasjalsfjlasfkdjlfasfsdlgkjsdlgjsdkgjsdg.
I'm turning into one of them.

Oh yah. And this handbag's pretty.
Get me that in light pink and I'll love you forever.


-smacks self-
I AM TURNING INTO ONE OF THEM!!!
Someone save me.

POSTSCRIPT: OH MY HOLY CANNOLI. RAIN IS COMING ON JANUARY 27th!!!
Ticket prices are like so.

RM752, RM502, RM402, RM302, RM202, RM132 and RM82

That ain't half bad! And it's in Bukit Jalil Stadium, FYI.
Who wants to go with me?

Bloody hell.

My stupid speakers died.

MY MUSICCCCC!!! MY PROZACCCCCCCC!!!!
DON'T LEAVE ME HANGINGG!! I NEED MY DAILY FIXXXX.
AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-goes temporarily insane-

On another note.

Hubba hubba hubba.
Topless Jaejae!!! Holy cannoli. Oh so yummy. Changminnie just looks uncomfortable.
YUNHO!! -melts and dies-

-dies some more-
WHERE THE HECK IS BUNNY BOY?

Don't know who I'm talking about?
THIS BUNNY BOY aka DORKCHUN. They left the poor boy out on purpose.
TT___TT

I need my speakers back.

Did you know?

Did you people know that Friday, December 1st 2006 was World Aids Day?
You probably didn't. But then again, you probably did.

OH WELL. Here's some info on it since it's a really big issue in our modern world.

That sounded like something out of an essay......REWIND.

YO. INFOZ ON HIV/AIDS L0LZ.

And that was just annoying. Back to the subject.

Everyday, at least 6000 children (note the 6000. Not just 6, 60 or 600. But 6000), are orphaned because of AIDS. EVERYDAY. If all these children held hands, they would stretch 5 and a half times across the United States. And by 2011, this virtual chain will reach around the world.
That's really sad. To go through life without your parents. Left alone to fend for yourself at such a young age and another sad thing is that most of these kids are HIV+.

Here's another interesting tidbit for you from TIMES magazine.

After 21 years as the world's most elusive and mysterious killer, the AIDS virus has ended 24 million lives. It's likely to get worse: the United Nations predicts that as many as 70 million could die from AIDS over the next 20 years, leaving 25 million orphans behind by 2010.

Now, THAT is really sad. 24 million lives. Gone. Just like that. And another 70 million more could die if something isn't done.

But then again, people are just so goshdarn STUPID. S - T - U -P - I - D.
You can probably guess why. Damn smart lah issit? Never practice safe sex.
There's a bunch of idiots who think that having sex with a virgin can cure AIDS too.
BODOHBODOHBODOH!!!
It's all because of people like these that little children are getting orphaned.

Fine. So it's not entirely THEIR fault.
The reason why all this happens is because they don't have the proper education.
Hence the emerging of the whole sex with a virgin thing. They made it into an old wives tale.

How lame.

These people need to realize that they can get HIV from sex and from blood. Children can also get HIV from their mothers (when they grow inside pregnant mothers and when they drink breast milk.) Sex is one way to get HIV. If people use condoms when they have sex, they get HIV much less.
You can also get HIV by sharing needles. This means using a dirty (not clean) needle after someone else has used it. Some people who take illegal drugs like heroin and cocaine take these drugs by needle. Some of these people share needles. If one person has HIV and he shares his needles, he can give HIV to other people. But if people have clean needles or if they know how to clean needles, they do not get HIV as much.

Another sad thing is there's no cure for HIV/AIDS. Although there are various drugs that can be used to help slow down the progress of the disease, it does not eradicate HIV/AIDS. Some drugs also have certain toxic side effects. I have no idea what these side effects are, but if they're toxic, they're most likely bad. But it's still way better than just sitting there, waiting to die.
Although these drugs exist, only 15% of the people in the world who need HIV drugs get them. Most of the people who get them live in wealthy (not poor) countries.
Like those in Africa, for example. They certainly couldn't afford these drugs. They'd rather spend it on food and such! Even in the USA and Europe, people are having a tough time buying these drugs as they can cost more than $1000 every month.

Just so you know, this little boy takes those drugs and he's changed soooo much after he started taking them.
Click on the picture to read the article.

And here's something that's copied and pasted from TIMES magazine.

Helms and other like-minded politicians are also hostile to efforts to educate people, particularly young people, about safe-sex practices. Most teens are not likely to be exposed to the AIDS virus, but those who become sexually active at an early age, particularly in poor communities where drug use is rampant, are at risk. A Government study found that about 1% of the black teenage girls who bore children in New York City during 1988 were infected with the AIDS virus. There is a 40% to 60% chance that an infected woman will transmit the virus to her child.

It is clear that educational efforts should be generously funded and sustained indefinitely. Each new group of adolescents must be alerted afresh to the dangers of AIDS and the ways to block the disease. This is especially - critical for young gay men. While the large majority of older homosexuals have learned to practice safe sex, the younger generation does not appear to be so scrupulous. One study in San Francisco of 100 gay men, ages 18 to 25, found that within the previous month 46% had engaged at least once in anal intercourse without a condom.

Although this was a small study, and it may not be indicative of behavior in all gay communities, the findings were shocking. They show how far educational efforts still have to go. If society is unwilling to expend the energy and resources necessary to teach its young people to avoid AIDS, then the epidemic could grow ever larger and ever more tragic well into the next century.

Hear that? LARGER. MORE TRAGIC.
Not cool.

So, go do something about it.
Sign the ONE campaign or something. Go buy something RED.
I signed it. But I didn't buy it. haha. Although I did send in this piece of art.

PRETTY. No?

You're a freaking idiot.

Self harm is stupid.
Don't do it, kids.
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I'm gonna go look back on my life now [Thank you, Zhi Lin for blogworthy material]. Cue the flashbacks.

Baby - Toddler - Kindergarden years
It's amazing, isn't it. I still remember what I liked when I was young.
Sesame Street was one thing. Oh the joys of watching the likes of Big Bird, Kermit the Frog and Cookie Monster.
Apparently, I could watch those videos for hours on end. This probably contributed to my love for anything Sesame Street. To be frank, I still love Sesame Street although don't watch it anymore. BUT WHO CARES? At least I'm in touch with my inner child.

There was also a Disney stage. Not to say that I dislike Disney now (LOVE is more like it), but Disney movies like Bambi, Cinderella, Snow White, The Fox and The Hound and Sleeping Beauty played a vital role in my childhood. Practically all Disney movies have something to teach and that's also probably why I'm so childish sometimes.
Yes, I still watch Disney movies. Got a problem with that?
Have I mentioned that I lovelovelovelove Winnie the Pooh? Especially Pooh Bear plushies. *hinthint*

Moving on. As most people would know, music is my ultimate passion. I honestly could not, imagine my life without music. So, of course, by the time I was 3, I'd already started liking stuff by Michael Jackson.
I remember spending my days in front of the stereo, dancing and singing to Thriller as I imagined myself on a huge stage with millions of people cheering me on.
I still love Michael Jackson as he's the one who started everything in the first place. His music, his works, was the reason why I'm pursuing a career in the music industry now. He is my ultimate inspiration. I don't care if people are accusing him of being a child molester, or if he's dodging taxes or if he doesn't have nose. All I care about is the music he made. Everything else doesn't matter.

So, all in all. I was a pretty happy-go-lucky kid. And then comes Primary School.

Primary school years
Ah. The years where everything begins and everything ends. A milestone in every 7 year olds life. The start of pursuing knowledge and making an ass out of yourself.
I never liked my primary school years. I never had proper friends, I never did well, I never cared about anything. I faced everything that was thrown as me.

How do you think a 7 year old could handle all that pressure from parents, friends and teachers? The answer is, I couldn't handle it. So, I have a huge feeling that it contributed to the attitude problem I had back then.
I admit, I wasn't a nice kid. I was easily irritated. It was what we'd call "Xiao Qi" kinda thing.
OOH. The people who hated me really hated me. Like, HATE HATE. Not a nice thing to deal with.

And then we fast forward a little. That's when I met Cheri. I could probably describe her as a quiet and introverted person. Which was probably how I'd describe myself now.
Cheri was my first ever friend who I could tell anything to. She was supportive, she was smart, she was everything I wasn't. That's probably why we got along so well.
We were practically inseparable. Like 2 sides of the same coin. We talked about anything and everything. We could rattle on for hours on end about music, books and movies. That's how We even planned on going to the same secondary school.
Well, at least until I screwed everything up and ended up going to BUD 4.
But I love this girl with all my heart, she'll always play an important role in my life and I really appreciate everything she's ever done for me. I know that I haven't been the greatest friend in the world, but I just want you to know that you mean so much to me and I thank you for that.

Lower Secondary years
Oh joy. And we bring ourselves to my lower secondary years. I hated these years even more than my primary school years.
Having to deal with peer pressure is a really stressful thing.
Popularity was such a big deal to me then, for some reason. I guess, I just wanted to be accepted by everyone due to the fact that I hadn't been accepted by anyone completely before.
I would try my hardest to fit in. I would try my best to keep up with the latest trends, to associate myself with the "popular" people.

And then, in Form 2. Something changed me. I got stabbed in the back by people I had trusted and that really affected me. I stopped talking to people completely. I stopped caring about everything. It affected everything in my life, including my studies. I became even more introverted than I already was. I couldn't trust anyone anymore.

Form 3 was the hardest year of my life. Ever.
There's not really much to say other than that my life was a living hell.
And again, there was more backstabbing on my part and others, as well as more trash-talking.
I started thinking about my life. What had I achieved by then? What had I done that was worth noting?

Nothing.
Zilch.
Zip.
Nada.
A BIG FAT ZERO.

And then I sunk into this crazy depression. I didn't tell anyone. I couldn't. I wouldn't. I hated myself. I hated everything and everyone around me. That was when I decided, I couldn't stay in that school anymore. It was too much for me. My self-esteem was at an all time low, friends were coming and going and I was blaming myself for everything. For things I hadn't done, for things I did do. It was time to move on.

Present
New school means new start. I had to start fresh.
The first month in DJ wasn't very pleasant as my wounds were still relatively fresh and I was still really introverted.
But, thank God Cheri was around. And then Jia Huey popped in in March. That made everything so much more better for me.

I'm actually happy now. I laugh more. I smile more. I don't burst into tears at random times.
My studies have taken a turn for the better as I'm actually trying now. I met new people, I learned things about myself that I had never known before.

This is how much moving to a new school has affected me.
I've stopped swearing. I talk a lot more. I'm a nicer person in general. At least, that's what I'd like to think. Haha.
I don't have to deal with so much drama anymore.
And most importantly, I don't have to face everything alone anymore.

Lifeless.

I want a social life.
Badly.

Thank you very much, dear mother of mine, for not allowing me to have one.

Damn serial rapists and murderers on the loose. TT__TT
I HATE YOU.

I love Japanese food.

I went to Shangri-La hotel for lunch yesterday.

Or to be more specific, we went here!
Buffet lunch somemore, wor.

The minute we walked in, we were surrounded by shelves of ALCOHOL.
Observe.
And that's not even half of the shelf. There were still 8 more shelves filled with bottles of wine.
And I still wanna try sake.

OH ALCOHOL. WHERE FOR ART THOU ALCOHOL?

Anyway, to the food.

Not much to say other than this.
THE FOOD WAS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO YUMMY.

I didn't take that many pictures of my food, haha.
But needless to say, I stuffed myself silly with a wide variety of sashimi, sushi and more sashimi.

Someone send me to Japan so I can continue stuffing my face with food.

Spot the difference.

I was in Shangri-La hotel for lunch today and I noticed that Shang Palace's hallway looked kinda similar to the hallway in Goong.

Or maybe it's just me..... Meh.
I'll blog about today tomorrow. I'm tired.

Who let the dogs out?

I love puppies.

They're the cutest things ever besides babies.

Place your bets people! The pug or the...I don't know what dog that is, but place your bets anyway!

I so want this dog. Even my mom says its cute. And she's not an animal person.

Little tough guy. <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger2/2014/2986/1600/puppies.jpg">Sleeping puppies!!!!! KAWAII!!!!!!

I really want a dog now.

Did I mention that puppies are the cutest things besides babies?

there's a rhyme and reason.

Cheri's evil. She made me do this survey thinga-ma-jiggy.
AYE. H8. YEW.







I lied. I love you.
ANYHOO.

FAVOURITES
Favourite Colour: Red. Pink. White. Black.
Favourite Food: Japanese food. Mommy's cooking.
Favourite Song: Too many to list out.
Favourite Movie: Again, too many.
Favourite Sport: Basketball.
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday.
Favourite Season: Eh. Rainy?
Favourite Ice-Cream: Lots.

CURRENTS
Current Mood: Bored.
Current Taste: Spit?
Current Clothes: Shirt + Shorts.
Current Desktop: Se7en.
Current Toe Nail Colour: Normal?
Current Time: 11:55am.
Current Surroundings: Study room. Surrounded by shelfs. And books. And more books.
Current Annoyance: HUNGRY.
Current Thoughts: HUNGRYANDBORED.

FIRSTS
First Best Friend: Cheri.
First Crush: Go die. Like I'd tell you.
First Movie: I don't remember. Probably some Sesame Street movie or Disney movie.
First Lie: How would I know? I've told like 902860236 lies in my lifetime.
First Music: Again. Refer to the above.

LASTS
Last Cigarette: Ew. Gross.
Last Drink: Water.
Last Car Ride: To One Utama. And coming back home.
Last Crush: Stfu.
Last Movie: I don't know.
Last Phone Call: Zhi Lin asked what time I was coming to pick up ze notes.
Last CD Played: I have no idea. I don't listen to CDS. MP3!

HAVE YOU EVER
Have You Ever Dated One of Your Best Friend: No.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: Yes. OOPS.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: No.
Have You Ever Skinny-Dipped: NO.
Have You Ever been on TV: YES! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Not that it's a big thing....
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Dont Know: No. STOP MAKING FUN OF MY NON-EXISTENT LOVE LIFE.

THINGS
1 thing You Do When You Are Bored:
Anything I feel like doing?
2 Things You Can Hear Right Now:
- Elton John // Can You Feel The Love Tonight.
3 Things You Did Today:
Blogged.
Studied a bit.
Eat.
4 Things You Are Wearing:
Glasses. Shirt. Short. Underwear. ABUDEN.
5 People to do this quiz:
Aiyah, who also can do lah. I don't really care.
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I love Science. NYAHAHAH. SO EASY TO UNDERSTAND.
Not like Chemistry or Physics. Tch.

Free at last.

Praise whoever came up with the idea of domestic help.
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On another note, I'm not moving to Mersawa. Instead, I'll be moving to Merbau.
Whoop-dee-doo.
Note that that was a sarcastic kind of "whoop-dee-doo". Not that I was ever good with sarcasm.
I DON'T WANNA DO ADD MATHS NO MORE!!!

And Christina Aguilera's new album is awesome.
Especially the song "Hurt".
And I forgot to add that she's hot.
Like hothothothothothothothot.
HOT.

And I'll be tagging everything coz' we don't want people stealing now, do we?

BYE.
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And today is Zhi Lin unnie's birthday!
Say happy birthday, people.

Don't know what to get her....Fikir fikir pun tak boleh fikir.
Bugger. That girl is so hard to please.
She'd probably want me to get her Yunho. Or Kibum.
Dream on, man.

Scream like no one's listening.

My phone died. So I got it changed today!
It's all shiny and new. O.O
And I'm so addicted to Quadrapop.

Anyway, I'm all BLEH again. Bloody bipolar disorder.
But I'm not gonna waste your time since Zhi will start giving me a speech on how I should on the bright side of things.

Note to self; remember to get a muzzle for Zhi Lin. XD

Yah. So, I'm pontenging school tomorrow! Go me! Along with 99% of the class....Pei Wen and Zhi Wei will probably be the only people going....But there's a slight 1% chance that someone else will go too!

And I can't get that Teriyaki Boyz song out of my head.
And it's taking a really long time to transfer all them songs to my phone.
And I really, really, really wanna eat something cold right now.
Like ice-cream. Or ice-cream cake.
A Mochi would work too.
Or even better. Get me Yunho or Jaejoong and I'll be a happy happy girl.
Yup yup.

This is the end of my random post for the day!
My life is a boring story.

WHEE!

My daddy just bought me this pretty pretty phone.

WHEE. I lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove it so so much.
I have succeeded in bodeking my daddy!

I actually wanted the LG Chocolate phone, but this one can keep more songs. So, that means it's better!

And all that pizza I ate today is so gonna go to my ass and hips.

The train left the station and the eggs broke.

Today was fun.
We spent 2 periods after recess in the hall watching people dance!
And then Tzen Ting, Hooi Teng, Ping Xin and me started talking about Death Note and Sunway Lagoon.
And then, we started playing with coins....Flip flip flip FLIP!

NO CHEMISTRY TODAY TOO!
That we spent playing the train game.
"Huo che, huo che, DUT DUT DUT. Ni yao qu na li?"

Nyahahahaha. After that we started playing the egg game.
And everybody else ended up playing it too.
Namely, Aaron, Shu Hann, Li Yin, Haikal, Yong Chin, Nizar, Tiam Loong, Shin Yin, Ping Xin, Tzen Ting, Hooi Teng and me!

It was fun.
And Aaron kept wanting to hit everyone's hand.
My hand got crushed by him and Haikal.
Ping Xin's hand got crushed by everyone!! So did Tiam Loong's hand!

I feel like I'm 7 years old again when I'm playing childish games like those.

And playing the egg game with 12 people is not an easy feat.

Get ready for a Se7olution

Today is photo-blogging day.

My entry will consist mostly of pictures as pictures say a 1000 words.

1. Se7en's new album
Love it.


2. Se7en is so yummy
Yum yum.


3. Jaejae is SUPER yummy
Start swooning.

4. Death Note owns my faceI love Raito and L.


Photoblogging session's over. Go back to doing what you were doing.

I wanna get me some of that.

I don't think you people knew that Eng Teck thinks he's sexy.
And you KNEW I was gonna post this here. THANKS FOR THE IDEA, ITIK.

Jia Huey: Why do you wear a singlet?
Eng Teck: Coz' it makes me look sexy. So I can hide my sexy body from you all.

Tsk tsk. What a big head that boy has.

And my hair feels really soft right now coz' I just took a shower. Haha.
But how sad. It'll only last for....3 hours and it'll go all frizzy at the ends again.
Sigh.
I want my LONG, STRAIGHT hair again.

PS: YES, I had long hair. Very funny, is it?

Mirror mirror on the wall.

I want a 24 inch waist too.

DEAR YOUNGWOONG JAEJOONG.
PLEASE TELL ME THE SECRET OF OBTAINING A 24 INCH WAIST.

How the heck did that boy get a 24 inch waist? Even my waist isn't as small as that!
28 inches....My heart.

But oh my, that boy is so yummy.
I make it sound like he's a piece of chocolate cake or something.......
But I still think he's yummy.

And I still want a 24 inch waist.