And everything you had got destroyed.
Listening to: Beyoncé // If I Were A Boy
You decide to spend the remaining weeks alone. Alienating yourself from civilization to the best of your abilities. All that time you spend alone allows you to retrospect; to figure out what exactly it is you want out of everyone including yourself; to figure out how things could have changed so much over the past year to the point where nothing is as familiar any longer. You decide that everything's different. The old you feels like a stranger to the new individual that you have become. You no longer strive for attention. You no longer feel the need to be constantly surrounded by people. You no longer want to be accepted into the folds of society nor do you need to be reassured of your position in it. You decide that you have changed for the better. The seconds that once felt like minutes; the minutes that once felt like hours; the hours that once felt like days and the days that once felt like weeks or even months, do not exist anymore. You don't spend your days in fear or anxiety. Despite all of that, you can't help but feel as though you haven't the choice but to reluctantly tread on each day with trepidation and caution. Because the people that you once thought you knew oh-so-well seem otherwise; poles apart from who you first met or maybe it's because you've altered so much in your own way that they no longer seem to be the way they used to be to you. Then, you rediscover the ones who truly care about you and vice-versa, and the experience seems all the more poignant, Although their number is small, it does not matter. You now know who to trust, who to maintain a safe distance from and who you should keep away from altogether. Moreover, you've learned how to place your own needs before others. You've learned how important it is to take care of yourself first and not allow yourself to be manipulated at the hands of others. You've learned to be firm, to make your thoughts and emotions apparent. You've learned how to stand up for your own rights, to take what it is you deserve and nothing less. You've learned how not to be the type of human being you despise so much.
You've grown up. Your mind has finally caught up.
Tomorrow may seem like any other day but it isn't.
The prospect of spending it alone doesn't even matter anymore.
And that is how much you've evolved.
You decide to spend the remaining weeks alone. Alienating yourself from civilization to the best of your abilities. All that time you spend alone allows you to retrospect; to figure out what exactly it is you want out of everyone including yourself; to figure out how things could have changed so much over the past year to the point where nothing is as familiar any longer. You decide that everything's different. The old you feels like a stranger to the new individual that you have become. You no longer strive for attention. You no longer feel the need to be constantly surrounded by people. You no longer want to be accepted into the folds of society nor do you need to be reassured of your position in it. You decide that you have changed for the better. The seconds that once felt like minutes; the minutes that once felt like hours; the hours that once felt like days and the days that once felt like weeks or even months, do not exist anymore. You don't spend your days in fear or anxiety. Despite all of that, you can't help but feel as though you haven't the choice but to reluctantly tread on each day with trepidation and caution. Because the people that you once thought you knew oh-so-well seem otherwise; poles apart from who you first met or maybe it's because you've altered so much in your own way that they no longer seem to be the way they used to be to you. Then, you rediscover the ones who truly care about you and vice-versa, and the experience seems all the more poignant, Although their number is small, it does not matter. You now know who to trust, who to maintain a safe distance from and who you should keep away from altogether. Moreover, you've learned how to place your own needs before others. You've learned how important it is to take care of yourself first and not allow yourself to be manipulated at the hands of others. You've learned to be firm, to make your thoughts and emotions apparent. You've learned how to stand up for your own rights, to take what it is you deserve and nothing less. You've learned how not to be the type of human being you despise so much.
You've grown up. Your mind has finally caught up.
Tomorrow may seem like any other day but it isn't.
The prospect of spending it alone doesn't even matter anymore.
And that is how much you've evolved.
