Rebirth; unfamiliar ceilings.

Some of us will learn what none of us should know.
Smoke'll fill this room, there'll be nothing left to show.
Hold onto the ones you love, there won't be time to show enough.

We need each other like flower pots and dirt.
For seven years we've spent growing from the earth.
It's hard to see how all of this will end.
For the consequence of a broken heart to mend.

Stay awake with me.
It's getting light outside.
when time is still,
For you it hurries.
Stay awake with me.
So I can see the sun,
Rising up upon your shoulders.

People change their ways, when there's nothing left to lose.
Coffee talk and crimes, runs cold blood through our times.
You won't recall all your wins,
but the toughest beats will haunt your heart and mind.

Stay awake with me.
It's getting light outside.
when time is still,
For you it hurries.

Stay awake with me.
So I can see the sun rising up upon your shoulders.
Stay awake with me,
So I can picture and move your face a little closer
Stay awake for me,
Close the window and stop this room from getting colder.

Some of us will learn what none of us should know.
Smoke'll fill this room, there'll be nothing left to show.

Stay awake with me.
It's getting light outside.
when time is still,
For you it hurries.

Stay awake with me.
So I can see the sun rising up upon your shoulders.
Stay awake with me,
Take this picture and move your face a little closer
Stay awake for me,
Close the window and stop this room from getting colder.

I know everyone else has done this way before me.
But, I am proud to say that I have finally moved on with my life.

Change is imminent.
& I will gladly embrace it.

Soon, everything will be the way I want it to be.

About damn time, I say.

Far away.

Listening to: Army Of Three // Blind Me To See

Tonight was fun.

omg. guitarist sexy like nobodies business.
bassist also sexy as hell.

my kaki nak patah dah.
you try dancing in heels for a good half hour!

Rachel damn hot.
Lai Wah and Yee Lian also damn hot.
Ying Xian and Jia Wei also damn hot.
:D

I also damn hot because I sweat like a dog.
wakakakakakaka.

Wee Liang still my brother from another mother.
Scottong, please remind me to give you the CD on Monday.

my stomach damn pain after dancing.
CONGO LINE!
cha cha cha cha cha CHA!

the dancers performance was SMOKING.
like a lighted cigarette.
yer. so ugly description.
like a bonfire nicer.
HOT. SIZZLE. BUUUURRRRNNNN.

1st band = ok.
2nd band = poo poo.
3rd band = super goooooooooooood.

I think I'm rather funny.
don't you? :D

Edit:
I forgot to add that the CAL Treasurer, Jin Hoong has taken to calling me Cina Pek.
damn wtf / wtg / wth lah.
what kind of person greets you by saying, "HEY! CINA PEK!"
ya. only him.
thaaaannnkkks. :(

Way, way too hot.

Listening to: Wheesung // Too Hot

Oh, my Gong Yoo! Why you so sexy?!
You make me want to meraba-raba your sexy wangja body with it's sexy killer abs and big muscles and cium-cium your handsome, rugged face.

Especially after seeing this picture and watching 17 episodes of Coffee Prince in a span of 4 days.

Sexy until can die.

I very lazy to update, so next time you open this page got sex god to stare at. :)

I'm in despair and I can't find the answer.

Listening to: Dong Bang Shin Ki // DARKNESS EYES

As I was browsing through the archives of this online journal, a thought struck me like a bolt of lightning.

Reading the fine, black print on the screen of my computer.
Lines and lines of abstract thoughts made concrete through letters, words and sentences.
Paragraphs and paragraphs of my heart. My mind. My very soul. Laid out for the world to gaze upon.
My weaknesses. My strengths. Everything.

The very thought seems stifling. It's as if I've locked myself in a burning room.
Black tendrils curling, wrapping themselves around my lungs.

Squeezing.

Tighter. Tighter. Tighter. To the point where it seems impossible to breathe.

It sickens me to know that I have come to rely on this web page so much.
Knowing that I have no other way to freely express myself the way that I would like to.

I'm not good with my words in person.
I stutter. I shake. I fumble over my words. I say the wrong things.
I silence myself.

Writing has always been one of my escapes along with music.
A gateway to a fantasy. A form of liberation.

I may not be the most expressive writer out there.
I may not know difficult words that people scratch their heads at when they first see them.
I may not appear to be deep or meaningful at times.

But I am perfectly lucid. I know what's going on.
I just make it seem as though I know nothing at times in order to avoid the truth.

I trust people to not use my discourses against me.
Which is why I continue to type away in this small white box day after day.

But that thought just keeps striking at me again and again.

What if?

I’M JUST IN DEEP　蒼い孤独の (海の中)
I DON’T KNOW HOW?　前に進めず (立ち止まって)
剥がれ落ちてく　偽りの破片(カケラ)
握りつぶして滴(したたり)り落ちる BLOOD
DARK IN MY MIND　僕は　弱さに　隠れて

Break a trick.

Listening to: Dong Bang Shin Ki // TRICK

Because I owe Jia Wei and Ying Xian.

5 things found in my bag:
- Purse. Fake GUCCI, baby!
- Textbooks. The joys of learning.
- Tiny green pencil box that Marcus keeps threatening to break.
- i-Pod video.
- Calculator for Economics.

5 things found in my wallet:
- Money.
- Random receipts.
- Guitar pick.
- Eighteen Visions dog tag.
- Cards.

5 favourite things in my room:
- My bed. I love my bolsters.
- Poporing doll that I've been sleeping with since Form 1. XD
- Guitar!
- Books.
- CDs.

5 things I've always wanted to do:
- Set up a band. Which I already have....hahaha.
- Do well in my studies.
- Play the drums and violin.
- See A7X live. Oh and see MCR live again!
- Have my own concert. XD

5 things I'm currently into:
- Music. Always have and always will.
- Sleep.
- Anime.
- Food.
- You.

5 presents you wish for:
- Money plzkthxbai.
- Electric guitar plzkthxbai. A red one.
- Money again plzkthxbai.
- More money plzkthxbai.
- To meet my favourite musicians and conduct a proper conversation with them about life and music and other shit in general.

The person who tagged you is: Jia Wei and Ying Xian.

Your 5 impressions of him/her:
Jia Wei:
- My lame buddy. YOU LAMEST.
- Funny as hell. Honestly, she's one of the funniest people I've ever met in my life.
- Random! All of a sudden talk about shit and the red tide and Nigahiga. =.=
- Wonderful buddy. SO CARING.
- Still lamer than me. :D

Ying Xian:
- One of the most caring people I know.
- Loves to eat!
- Always broke. =.=
- Likes to bite me and koala bear me.
- She's full of lurrveeeeee.

Most Memorable thing she has done to you:
Jia Wei:
- Spazz about Ramly burger with me. ^___^

Ying Xian:
- All the occasions where she has bitten me and koala bear-ed me.

If he/she becomes your love, you will still :
Jia Wei:
Love her? Lol.

Ying Xian:
She no lesbian tendencies. D:

Kay. Finish.
I tag no one.

这爱情太脆弱 。

Listening to: Zhang Li Yin 張力尹 // 交错的爱

On an extremely recent excursion (meaning two hours ago) to Old Town White Coffee in Kota Damansara with Mama, Sister and Brother.

Ordered toast because I like toast. Was not happy with the serving. Also ordered eggs. Because we like eggs.
Sister dearest, discovered a form where customers could leave their comments.

We had fun with it. =D

Yeah. My whole family is lame.
Proven in 2B lead pencil.

**********

WHY NO MORE FIQA?!!!
An outrage! Blasphemous! Sacrilegious!
(note that I am channelling Yee Lian. =D )

OMG. She's like a googillion (note how I cleverly used Ben Stiller's word!) times better than those 2 glorified lala muis Cindy and Adeline.
SEE!


Fierce!


Tickety-tack hot mess, outta control super-trannies from Transylvania.

TELL ME IF I'M WRONG.
I dare youuuuuu.
I will bite your head off.
*CHOMPS ON ONION*

Lead me to your door.

Listening to: David Archuleta // The Long and Winding Road

"he drifts across dreams on a bed of clouds
and passes right by the ones he loves
they call to him but he can't hear a thing
Instead he keeps on dreaming. and dreaming."

A momentary life is all we have.
such a precious, fragile little thing.

even though I never knew you and have never been associated with you.
just hearing about how your loved ones stuck by you throughout that difficult time.
it touched my soul.

know that your story is inspiring.
know that the above lines are dedicated to you and your legacy.

rest in peace.

I'm slowly getting taller here in Wonderland.

Listening to: Something Corporate // Watch The Sky

I don't know if I did the right thing by going to Taylors for A-Levels....

I think I made a mistake.

I am so screwed.
Why do I feel so tempted to drop out and just move to ICOM?

It's times like these when I just feel like saying, "Oh, snap."

**********

On a much, much, much, MUCH lighter note!

I STILL think Effie David and Roadhouse David should win.
Make it a tie or something, I don't care! I just want them both to win!

EFFIE AND ROADHOUSE, KTHX.

And I'm so smitten by Jason Castro.
He's just so dreamy!

Smitten! Dreadlocks and all!
He should get 3rd place! Just because I'm so smitten by him!
<3

**********

I forgot to add:

HI, MS. ANNE! =D
& HI any other lecturer who stumbles across this blog! I'm super funny right?!
I promise I'll study hard!

Mrs. Ong! I'm sorry my Civil Courts paper is so poo poo. D:
Please don't kill me.

California in the summer.

Listening to: Jack's Mannequin // Holiday From Real

Watching this rekindled my love for Andrew McMahon's music.
The man is a freaking genius.

One can't even imagine the pain he's had to endure throughout his entire ordeal.
And for him to be giving back to the public, is an extremely noble deed, indeed.

I remember putting up web banners asking people to pray for him back in 2005 and wanting one of those bright orange "I Will Fight" bands.

I only wish I could do so much more than that.

Maybe this might make a difference by educating the public about the world and the people who live in it.

The Dear Jack Foundation is a non-profit charitable organization dedicated to funding cancer research and was founded July 2006 by leukemia survivor and Jack's Mannequin/Something Corporate front man Andrew McMahon. "Having fought my own battle with Leukemia I feel an intense personal obligation to use whatever resources are at my disposal to raise both money and awareness for the countless young people who are being diagnosed with similar blood diseases. I hope to focus attention on the grossly understudied demographic of cancer patients falling between the ages of 15 and 22. It is also my hope to use the Dear Jack fund to provide outreach and assistance to families coping with cancer" says McMahon.

The primary beneficiaries of the Dear Jack Foundation are the Pediatric Cancer Research Foundation (www.pcrf-kids.com), The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society (www.leukemia.org) & The Regents of the University of California.

I can't wait for the documentary to be released.
That and JM's new album, "The Glass Passenger".

I bet it's going to be epic.
Absolutely epic.

The man took 3 years to write it. It's bound to be.