Friday, September 26, 2008

I still thought you were right here.

Listening to:Dong Bang Shin Ki [동방신기] // どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう


Things are getting too much for me to handle.

The old familiar feeling that I can never seem to shake off.

I'm in over my head.

The only consolation that I have right now: New music.
Lee Hom. Jay Chou. DBSK.
And so far, I'm loving everything that I've heard so far.

Cherry on the sundae? Lee Hom just announced another world tour.
I'm psyched. I have to go. Again.
I must! He's like, number two on my "Best Live Acts" list!

Oh. My. God.
He has sex god hair.

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HAY THERE QT.

He's just perfect. <3
Marry me?

Is anyone even reading anymore?

No?

GOOD. YUNHO/LEE HOM PIC SPAM TIME. BYE.



I have just made myself a very happy girl.
Let us just ignore the fact that I actually sound like an extremely sad person who has nothing better to do with myself.

Oh, and I figured out that watching funny commercials cheers me up considerably. (Especially DBSK and SNSD's Haptic Anycall CF :3 )

Ok. I'm momentarily happy again. Everyone can just move along now.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

And I just can't pull myself away.

Listening to: Ne-Yo // Closer

I'm excited.
Can you tell I'm excited??
Because I am so totally excited.

Underneath all that angst and stuff, I actually harbor a deep and dark secret:

I love boy-bands.
Especially Korean ones with killer abs, sexy dance moves and gorgeous baritone ( YUNHO ILY! ) / tenor voices.
Oh and those who are making a comeback in a couple of days. :D



I'm excited.
Can't you tell that I'm totally excited?

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By the way, I don't want to go back to college.
I still can't shake off the feeling that I made a mistake.

It's like liquid dread is pouring down my throat.
A sort of condescending fear keeps poking at me, feelings of impartiality, a different sort of unease from the one that I have been familiar with for so long.

It is, quite frankly, a horrible feeling. To be doubting yourself and all of the people around you.
But I can't help it. It's not hard to be dubious about certain individuals when you take certain matters into account.

What an irony. I thought that pursuing this particular program would give me an advantage.
Instead, it's filled me with so much incertitude and given me an even more insipid point of view since I began this course.

My faith is wearing thin. Day by day, it wavers.

Sooner or later, it just might decide to falter, pack up and leave.

I await that day with trepidation.

Sympathy is not welcome.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Bang bang, shoot 'em up.

Listening to: Cobra Starship // The City Is At War

This holiday has not been productive. At all.

Save for the completion of the "Human", "Devil Hunter" modes in Devil May Cry 4 and the partial completion of the "Son of Sparda" mode .... FTW! TOTAL PWNAGE BY DANTE AND SANCTUS.

Someone drag my lazy ass to college and make me study, plzkthxbai.

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Moving on, this week has been a total drag. Save for Fiona's birthday party (sorry Germs!) and that stupid, stupid horror movie (remind me never to go near those ever again unless I've been given a dose of sleeping gas.)

I couldn't be arsed to update about the party. Because everyone seems to be doing so, therefore there isn't much of a point in my updating of an affair that most people are already aware of.

I'm such a lazy retard, aren't I?

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On to a much more serious topic: The 3 ISA detainees.

As the whole world already knows, Raja Petra (Editor of Malaysia Today), Terasa Kok (DAP’s Seputeh MP) and a Sin Chew reporter, were arrested under Section 73 (1) of the Internal Security Act. Something that was originally used to combat the insurgence of Communists, is now being used to silence people who make political dissent.

If the government deems whatever these three people have said or done "seditious", then why not bring them to the court of law where things can be settled fairly and logically? Detaining a person, without any explanations and even worse, without a trial is beyond m, what with the lack of evidence.

What makes this even more unbearable, is the fact that a politician who made extremely racist remarks towards an ethnic group of this country, namely the Chinese. AND when asked for an apology, says that he has done nothing wrong!

Where is the justice in this world (Up someone's ass probably)? I simply cannot comprehend as to why a racist is running around scot free while the people who make the most sense are being arrested under the ISA! Why not just charge that politician as well?

The Home Affairs Minister said in an interview with Al-Jazeera, that the ISA is meant to bring society back to one that is more mainstream.

Mainstream? Mainstream? MAINSTREAM?!
MAINSTREAM MY FOOT LAH.

What exactly IS your definition of mainstream? A society that is mainstream does not have idiot(s) who call the Chinese squatters and make us sound like we deserve squat (punpunpun! Ignore me). Instead of detaining him, he was merely given a slap on the wrist even after refusing to apologise, I cannot stop reiterating this fact, and was only suspended from UMNO for 3-years.

Furthermore, the reporter who merely relayed the news of this racist politician, is thought to be more guilty than the actual perpetrator. She's just doing her job! If Datuk Ahmad Ismail did not say all that and was oh-so-simply misquoted, then there should not be a problem with him apologizing. Instead, the opposite occurs with the reporter being arrested as though she were the one who committed a horrible crime.

Yet again, WHERE IS THE JUSTICE?!

As much as I love this country, truly I do, the internal struggles of the nation is merely dragging us all down. Every single one of us, no matter how much you want to deny it. It's high time someone stood up for the people who aren't so brave. Raja Petra is truly one of a kind. A no-holds-barred kind of man who just might be able to turn things around amongst the people.

I quote a friend, "It all starts with ourselves, as individuals that make the community that make the nation".

Any thoughts you politically apathetic non-existent readers?
COMMENT KTHX I LIKE THEM. NOT IN CBOX, IN COMMENT LINK. :D

But truly? The current political situation of this country makes me want to slap someone.

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LIKE WTF HOW STUPID CAN THEY GET?! TOTALLY DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. IDIOTS.

Such stupidity. Such utter stupidity.

Listen to this:

Home Minister Datuk Seri Syed Hamid Albar … said Tan was detained under Section 73(1) of the Act in order to ensure her safety as police intelligence indicated that there were threats to her life after she reported on Bukit Bendera division Umno chairman Datuk Ahmad Ismail’s allegedly racist remarks

We have no intention of holding a reporter as after all she was just taking notes of the comments made by a certain party that led to a public debate.

She maybe released as soon as today after police have obtained all information needed,” he said, adding that the reporter’s detention was part of the police preventive action. [The Star]

So to protect someone, you put him or her under preventive detention?

If you were so concerned with her safety, why not just send say, half a dozen policemen to protect her?

If you were so concerned with her safety, why not act on the so-called police intelligence and arrest the people who are threat to her life?

It’s not called preventive detention for nothing, innit?

Bodoh.

And here’s more kebodohan from Kodomo Lion:

Asked on the detention of Selangor senior executive councillor Teresa Kok, Syed Hamid said she was arrested due to her comments on mosques and the Azan recently.

Her comments have created public disorder and problems,” he said.

In case Botak is having trouble remembering, let me remind him that it was Khir “Tempe” Toyo who made the allegations against her — allegations that later proved to be untrue.

Teresa Kok was merely defending herself.

So why arrest her?

Arrest Tempe instead, because he was the one shit-stirring.

Bodoooh, bodoh.

THE BN GOVERNMENT has lost it’s mind. It has well and truly lost it.

It will lose the next general election hands down, no matter what happens after this.

So long, dudes, and thanks for all the laughs.

http://aisehman.org/?p=673


This country has well gone to the dogs.

Monday, September 01, 2008

Let's draw the road to our dreams on a white canvas.

Listening to: Se7en // Start Line

Back to the beginning. I need to retrace my steps. Take myself back to the day where writing used to mean everything to me.

It still does.

It's the first time I've felt so inspired in years. I feel driven to pen down the creative thoughts that used to flow so wondrously within my head. The Muse that used to reside within those corners and crevices ... it would be wonderful to say that She has returned permanently. Yet, uncertainty laces all throughout the faint threads that link themselves together to form those words that I have long coveted. This will be the first time I am writing of my own accord in years. Scribbling down the stories and fantasies that occupied my time, that drew me into worlds that would only exist in my dreams. That would have existed in another reality.

How I miss them so. How I miss the days where my thoughts flowed so freely on to paper. The days where I didn't have to wrack my brains in order to be able to do what I loved so.

I want to change all that.

Watch this piece of empty space.