Monday, January 21, 2008

All I need is the air I breathe.

Listening to: OneRepublic // Say (All I Need)

There are times when I just think I alienate the human race as a defence mechanism.
But then again, I guess I'm used to the loneliness.
I guess I'm used to the feeling of not being cared for as deeply as I care for others.


Because all I am is a line in the pages of a book.
And sometimes, I feel as if that's all I'll ever be.

I don't even feel worthy enough to play a role in a person's life and be a part of it.
Its as though my presence would never make a difference.

Someone tell me that isn't true.
I need to know that my life is worth living.

keep the faith; for it is all I will ever have.

I'm so afraid.

2 comments:

alanna said...

"You haven't lost your smile at all, it's right under your nose. You just forgot it was there."


Life is like an hourglass.
Sooner or later everything hits the bottom.
You just gotta be patient and wait for someone
to turn it around.

i am learning that perfection isn't what
matters. in fact, it's the very thing that
can destroy you if you let it.

*
Oi, I know you probably dont believe me but I know what you mean when you say you dont feel worthy enough to play a part in someone's life. It sucks, feeling so unworthy. But eventually, you're gonna feel better. You're in college right, meet more people, find something that you love - do it. You're gonna fall in love with doing something, learn something.. whatever. You're gonna love it and soon you're gonna feel like there's something worth living for. Maybe waking up to inhale the smell of coffe, maybe going into college smiling at everyone, maybe learning economics.. but don't give up in life.

Looksie you dumb dumb, think about it. When your mum and dad were like having sex(I KNOW RIGHT, SO OBSCENE) and his sperm(S) er, shot right up into her.. you know, there were like MILLIONS of them. and many many many of them were killed, many didnt make it. but the sperm that was gonna make you made it up there.

do you know how hard it is for you for beat MILLIONS of other sperms?

and you did.
so there must be a reason that you did, right?

:)


fuck, after the spem part, i really dont know what i'm mumbling about lol

jiahuey said...

okay the sperm thing was gross. haha. why does everyone use the sperm thing as an example?