It's so hard to say goodbye.

EDITED; 11.30pm, 16/02/08
Listening to: Emmy Rossum // Slow Me Down

I just got to thinking.
I get the feeling that I'm not the most well-liked person amongst my "peers".
But, I guess I can't call them "peers" if they don't like me lah, right? Well, duh.

Gosh, why didn't I notice this sooner? Even a 5 year old would have been able to tell.

Listening to: Christina Aguilera // Hurt


It seems as though every time I open my heart to someone, every time I give more of myself to an individual and let down my guard, I end up getting so hurt to the point where it could tear me apart.

Every time I hand over the key of that warm, beating apparatus with its cold, hard exterior to an individual, I end up having to change the locks.

I might think about permanently moulding that keyhole shut. My heart can't take this harsh world for much longer. It's much too delicate for this world & no longer wishes to continue beating for the ones who have hurt it so.

I'm an emotional person. I don't know how to handle my feelings.
Why exactly do you think my heart's kept under lock and key?

It's because I can't handle the waves it creates as they crash down on me.

PS: Dear Ying Xian,
No, I am not sad. I am merely voicing out what I have been feeling as of late.
Don't have to worry! =)