Before you know it you're frozen.

Listening to: Leona Lewis // Bleeding Love

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing.

You cut me open and I keep bleeding love.

My heart is currently harbouring an ocean of devastating waves.
One after the other, they keep crashing down on my fragile state of mind.

Thump.

Love.

Thump.

Regret.

Thump.

Pain.

Thump.

Joy.

Thump.

Grief.

Thump.

I used to ask myself. Who does my heart beat for?

The answer is, it beats for everyone I care about. It beats for the people who have made a mark in my life, especially those who have made their mark larger than life.

Apathy is an emotion that can no longer be used to describe my disposition. As much as I wish it could be so, I would only be living in denial if I kept telling myself that. I would only be creating conflict between my own persona and attributes with my words.

A living, walking contradiction.

Something I promised myself I would never be.

Goodbye Apathy. Thou hast been a dear advocate of mine.
But, I have to let go. Even if it means that I would have to hurt more than usual or love more than usual.

my heart has become a battleground.